so it turned out ok, right?

una sa lahat, salamat sa lahat ng mga bumati sa text, sa tawag, sa multiply, sa friendster, sa ym at higit sa lahat sa birthday thingy..

hindi ko man kayo nareplyan isa-isa, hindi niyo lang alam kung gaano niyo napasaya ng birthday ko..

junoy
janice
keone
jireh
dys
ate je ann
kuya aldrin
jarylle
millie
pat
kuya mel aka wavelength buddy
kuya marc
billy
regine so
angel chris
dave
abi p.
jb
monzenn
ana
julius
kuya alex
madz
momi april
angel jack
jeanine
en-en
ate claire
buyao
victor
kelvs
soph
emem
baby tal
ate glai
maice
lorenz
ate jane
ate eds
kuya arby
kat dela paz
jack cauton
gempoy
benyl
kuya ryan
master yetlen
arlene
ate kams
lorenz
jan rico
gheck
ervin
kuya lnel
aby
harley
TO
miles
jiro
kuya myko
anak
ate ekai
ate tina
kuya roy
marian
nevs
jahnus
clang
bon
gia
aldo
tammie
ate ayee
mich
ate tish
ella
KC
christie


at sa lahat ng hahabol pa.. salamat na rin..

bago pala ang araw na to, nagdadrama na ako..
hindi na kasi ako nageexpect masyado kasi ayaw ko rin namang naddisappoint at nahihirapan akong makarecover from disappointments.. pero yun.. i think it turned out right..

birthday wish(es) ko lang
less complicated life
an open line of communication
a clear and rational mind
a perpetual source of strength and inspiration and...
guitar strings (i am desperate)


hehe..Ü

happy birthday to me!Ü

finally here, but....

today is the official start of my sembreak..
for one, i'm happy because finally, i don't have to worry about my acads anymore..
unfortunately, all the problems and worries that i left behind so i can focus on reviewing are all coming back to me now since my mind is pretty vacant now..
so now..
all acad related stuff are gone..
more personal stuff that are more draining replaced it..

when can i ever not have any problems?
its just not fair..

what i thought would be a happy ending for this sem turned out to be dramatic..

how can i ever be truly happy?

i guess it really holds that for every action, there is ane equal and opposite reaction..

equilibrium?

if it ever exists..

sem break

kay lapit mo na, ngunit di ko pa rin mahagkan...


ayun, senti mode sana.. kasa biglang nawala..
a basta, ayaw ko muna magsenti..

nalulungkot ako kahit sem break na..
kasi malamang na hindi kami magkita..
how sad...

pero yun...

sana talaga makapag-usap kami ng matino bukas..

philo orals na lang..

tapos gabay planning na..
hindi ko alam kung sasama pa ako sa adsa planning..
pero sana makasama ako..


ayun..
good luck, karen.. kaya mo yan..


wish ko lang talaga, hindi ako mainis sa Gabay planning..
or else..

tsk tsk.. lagot ako kay *****...

haha, mali, lagot pala siya!

i know i'm busy... but i have to get this out of my mind first

first things first..

i hate you...
now i've written it down, it feels soo much better..

what i don't really like about this relationship we're having is it consumes so much of my time and my braincells than i want it to..
its not fair..
i suppose, i haven't known you that much to begin with...


dang, i hate it.. i just hate how i'm feeling right now..
i feel so confused, stupid, unloved, under appreciated..
add to that the stress of academics and org work..
imagine what i'm going through right now..

i wish you could be as sensitive to me as i am to you..
it feels so one-sided..

why do i always have to give when i'm not generous in the first place?
why do i have to understand and worry about you when before, i am just so selfish and independent?
why am i consuming so much of my energy for this? are you doing the same thing?
am i really ready for this?
or am is still blown away by its suddenness that i've lost all the confidence and personality i've built up around me..
my defences are down..

its not fair..
its soo not fair..

why can't i feel that i am being loved or missed at the very least?!?

you selfish person..
and i can't even say this to your face..
its soo not me..

i can't wait til everything is over..
by that time, i may not be as sane as i am now..

what i don't understand is, i'm not even asking for much..
i'm not demanding, as far as i know..

i am being tamed, even if i don't want to be..

ok, enough drama. now, back to my books