who's afraid of commitment now?

after three failed "relationships", one finally gets to sit down and realize what has happened in those three.. but after evaluating and learning from those experiences, i have to move forward now and face this budding fourth..

this one is different and so far, the best yet, of all my relationships. why do i say so? well for one, he's the only one who has the balls to actually do something about my situation. the others never really gave it much thought which made me really anxious. he also is the sweetest, although corny at the same time. we really did the mushy and cheesy stuff which was great. we took things slow. one day at a time.. never missing a chance to be with each other if time (and space) permits..

but now, when things seem to fall into place, i think i might be the real problem after all.. i might look far into the future as far as relationships are concerned, but i also overlook the time and space between the present and that future date. i seem to have the goal, but not the proper steps of achieving them. im just caught up with the present and the future, nothing in between.

sad thoughts..